::la fabulosa::

Do white people love mayonnaise more than they love white supremacy?

2006-05-10T00:14:00.000-07:00

Jessie says white people love mayonnaise. He gets this from me, because I love mayonnaise. However, my brother and sister both think mayonnaise is disgusting. My mom likes mayonnaise. We are all white. So, here is the poll to test Jessie's hypothesis.

Please note that you are to self-identify in this poll, so if you identify as white, you classify yourself as such, etc. Also, if you feel that the poll does not define you, you may hit "none of these" and explain in the comments. Feel free to explain your love or hate or indiffence towards mayonnaise in the comments as well.

If i get at least 2000 people to vote, then, i'll have an actual real sample size and will be able to draw some true conclusions (at least, that's what i learned in IB statistics because I had to study margins of error). I'm linking this to my myspace blog so that people can't vote three times if I put it on all three of my blogs. so, clicky to learn the truth about mayonnaise lovers.

Click to give your opinion on mayonnaise

this is pointless

2006-03-12T02:01:00.000-08:00

no, really, you all should just read and comment at my Myspace blog.

that means click above, or click here.

or here.

once again, i actually frequently update my myspace, so just go there.

Also, if you want, click on my friends links to the right of this post because I love them and you should too.

what?

2006-03-06T01:10:00.000-08:00

dude, the headquarters for campus crusade for christ is like right by my house...ewwww.

2006-02-22T22:57:00.000-08:00

this post is going to be full of interesting links and other things i want to say. i suppose i'll do it in the bullet point fashion, but i forgot the html, so i have to go look it up real quick. in other words, all those somewhat intriuging things i've seen recently will be listed below for your perusal and enjoyment. word.

South Dakota women might as well die for fucking. See, the great thing is that the state legislature of South Dakota has passed a bill outlawing all abortions. "Lot's of states do this, what makes this different?" you ask. Well, this bill does not allow for an abortion on account of the health of the mother. Of course, there is no exception for incest and/or rape either. As Amanda rightly states, the crazy ass fundies (and even Specter and Lieberman who aren't as crazy, but still stupid bastards) view womyn as merely vessels to carry babies to term and if they die from giving birth, then the more fondly we can remember them as noble martyrs for the anti-choice movement.

The Empire Brokeback and Brokeback to the Future (both videos)

Brokeback Mountain re-enacted with legos

The Supreme Court granted cert on the "Partial-Birth" abortion ban that Congress passed in 2003. Now, what is interesting about this is that it ties to the other abortion issues above because the ban does not include the mother's health as a factor in terminating the pregnancy. Congress claims that it does not have to consider the health of the mother when writing abortion legislation. With the new, far more conservative court, it will be interesting to know the outcome of this.

Dick Cheney shot a man in the face.

And finally, I had a grant presentation on Monday, and we ended up getting money, so I'm not a total failure! wooo!

go do this

2006-02-18T21:27:00.000-08:00

go pick the 5 or 6 words you most associate with me. It then compares your answers to mine and everyone else who does it. Then do your own and get me the link and i'll take yours.

woo!

i'm not poetic

2006-02-16T01:41:00.000-08:00

DISCLAIMER: emo post ahead.

An old friend of mine posted about not having an impartial and reasonable friend to drink tea and scream with/to. That's not all they posted about, but that sentence struck me particularly.

It reminded me of how I used to be that person (there's one thing i couldn't be impartial on, but yea). Also, I don't care for tea that much, but the tea house in Boulder had good tea, and I like raspberry iced tea. And, as most of you know, I'm good at expressing things loudly. Also, I think I'm generally a good listener, but only when no one is looking.

I hate feeling powerless to support and listen to someone I still care deeply about. Knowing how this person deals (or doesn't) with stress and emotion, and how very few people have gotten past that wall built rather high and thick. We all build those walls because of our experiences in being hurt, in being loved, in protecting the sacred things we keep deep in our souls. We don't share those things with everyone because the people you love them most are the ones who won't judge you or put expecations on you when they honestly know almost everything about you. At least, ideally they shouldn't.

It's so hard to contrast the elements of a friendship. On one hand, you can have honest conversations about things that hurt and feel better coming out of them, being able to let them cry and rub their head until they fall asleep. I always feel better about anything once I get some sleep and let my brain process. You can have fun doing crazy shit, making jokes about nerdy things that no one else finds funny, and laughing for hours on end. On the other hand, you can be selfish and wretched and possessive, and really hurt someone because they're more invested in your opinion and voice; always assuming that the good parts of friendship outweigh the bad, which they don't, necessarily. Are we all just fooled into the fact that friendships, love, romantic relationships are enduring? I don't know if that's true. At least, my experiences don't prove that's true.

This is the first time I've cried over this friendship in a good deal of months. But, for once, I'm not crying because I feel sorry for myself, but because I really hurt someone and now feel helpless and don't want them to sad, helpless and hurt by the things around them.

I don't want to hold you and feel so helpless...
I twist like a corkscrew
The sweetness rising
I drink from the bottle, weeping
Why won't you last?
Why can't you last
-rufus wainwright

obligatory music post

2006-02-15T02:35:00.000-08:00

yes, i never post, sorry.

so, i've recently been listening a lot to rufus wainwright because there was a song during the credits of brokeback mountain, that was him, and i'd never heard it, and it made me want to listen to him all the time (and have his fabulously gay babies). it's called "the maker makes" and it's one of his more ballad-like songs. i think his ballads are his best, but he also has some really clever songs like "poses" and "california" and "gay messiah". Also, a song he hasn't released yet is "between my legs," which he said was a protest song. he sang it at the concert he co-headlined with ben folds. i love him.

i also stumbled upon a twista song called "hope" that's rather uplifting. i like it.

daniel told me to listen to rilo kiley because i was complaining about how emo is just white boys whining about how depressed they are. rilo kiley is fronted by a woman. they're pretty good.

speaking of emo, matt gave me a CD of Jack's Mannequin, which is emo, but it's good. However, I do like some emo, just not emo hipsters :-)

And, I think the Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire soundtrack is way better than the previous three because it has a new composer.

I bought "Late Registration" (Kanye West) and there are some really good songs on it, and then a few that I don't care for. Overall, it's good, but I think "College Dropout" is better in terms of the number of songs I liked a lot. There's two really good songs that I recommend, one called "Heard 'em Say" which features the lead singer of Maroon 5 and "Crack Music" which features Common (i think). Also, the bonus track on the UK version is called "We can make it better" and it's good. There are other good songs on there too, but those ones stand out because of their political commentary.

I also like that "Beep" song by the Pussycat Dolls, which is ridiculous, but oh well.

Elsewhere in life, everything is going rather well. I took my mom roses and a vanilla latte for valentine's day and got a dog stuffed animal and lots of chocolate candy! wooo!

For as much as last year sucked, I think it sucked for a lot of other people too, and I'm just happy to not be in Boulder. However, I think I lucked out in terms of not having heavy amounts of stress and loss in my life right now. I just hope everyone else is coping with shit OK.

I wanna go up to Boulder and visit John and Lucas and Kevin because I miss them. I think a Watertower Reunion Tour might be in order *shudder*

dogs are bad (but sooo cute!!!)

2006-02-05T02:22:00.000-08:00

came home after being gone a little over 24 hours, and open the door my room to find about 10 old shoes, that were previously in the back of the closet, on my bed, in various states of chewed-up-ness. i confronted max with a shoe by holding it up and saying in a high pitched-dog-talking-voice, "Maxi! Did you do this?" Max then did his characteristic guilty move and tried to creep away backwards while keeping his head, and himself, as low to the ground as possible. I think Zero helped, though. Zero's a little better liar, however, and just looked at me with his cute puppy dog eyes. haha.

Today was nice. I have some new things in my life that i purchased at the mall, and some potentially other new things that I've been missing, but they will take time and patience; unlike my new pink crocs (isn't capitalism the perfect form of escapism???).

COMMENT!!!! OR I'LL EAT YOUR RETINAS OUT (ewww).

2006-01-29T15:05:00.000-08:00

Senator Salazar is wavering on whether or not to vote against cloture (the motion to force a vote on Alito). He has already stated he will vote against Alito, but voting for cloture is basically voting for Alito because there are enough votes to put him on the court. However, he has been getting a great response from people urging him to vote against the cloture motion. You can call up his office, email him on his web form, or fax him in a creative way, which will be explained below.

Salazar's webform is at http://salazar.senate.gov/contact/email.cfm (copy and paste)

His phone number in DC is: (202) 224-5852

And, if you access to a fax machine, or a kinkos and a little cash, we're faxing in pages of phone books or dictionaries, as this is a tactic that is often used to filibuster (most notably against the civil rights act of 1965, but that's a whole other issue). Or, if you're a West Wing nut, you can fax in pages from recipe books, or charles dicken's novels. One page will be fine. You should include on it that it is material to help Salazar filibuster. It's not too annoying and it's rather creative. Also, you can strategically choose which pages to send in (like the phonebook listings for salazar, or dictionary page with the definition of integrity higlighted). I'm personally going to fax in the last page of the chapter "Lighting Struck Tower" from Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. hehe.

The fax number is (202) 228-5036.

it's bad news, baby, i'm bad news

2006-01-26T17:42:00.000-08:00

ever since i left CU, where many people dislike me and call me a bitch and whatever, the traffic to this blog has gone down considerably. also, the fact i removed it from google is probably a factor. it's good to know that it was the people who didn't like me who were finding entertainment here. anyway, i update my myspace blog way more often, so if the three of you who still read this head over there, then everything will work out and maybe i can give this one up.

word.

West Virginians are the true brokeback mountaineers

2006-01-23T18:57:00.000-08:00

i posted this on myspace, too

2006-01-22T00:53:00.000-08:00

so, i post over at myspace, if anyone cares, but i'm not gonna give you my screenname, so you'll have to do a search.

so, i've decided i'm going to crochet myself some arm warmers. my friend carolyn had some her friend made for her, and mine certainly won't be as cool, but i'm over it.

I want you all to know that Barack Obama is still cool and that Senator Salazar is voting against Alito! woo!

David Glisch-Sanchez has my book, Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince. I miss it!!! I also miss him, and even talking to him, since he never calls anymore. Also, this is an official admonishment. Did you know admonish means: to express warning or disapproval to especially in a gentle, earnest, or solicitous manner? Well, that's what I'm doing. I think I'll try to admonish more often, and freak out at people less.

Finally, it's 1am and I turned it to PBS (because there's nothing else on on Saturday night and we don't have cable) and they're showing this movie of the Grateful Dead in concert, which includes obviously ridiculous drugged-up people, people getting high in some bathroom, and crazy hippies. I think it's hilarious that the hippies of the 70s look *exactly* the same as the hippies at Boulder. Actually, I would say they look better. PBS is the shit, and they're doing their annual pledge drive right now and if I made enough money, I would give them some just because they show people getting high. Actually, they have these really good late night programs that are all radical and shit, but they're from the 80s, except for the new documentaries on the Chicano movement in Colorado, which included an aquaintences grandpa, among other things. woo for PBS.

Do people know I really used to listen to crazy hippie music and heavy metal? Well, those of you who didn't go to high school with me. I still do, but I've diversified.

Also, tomorrow, I will bea acting as butch as possible and rooting for the Broncos, who are playing the Steelers and whoever wins gets to go to the Super Bowl. I love me some broncos.

Also, it's official, Kevin McMillon has no life...Also, I should comment on his blog more often. word.

student loans suck

2006-01-19T20:46:00.000-08:00

all throughout my college, i advocated that education should be a right, not a privelege for those who could afford it. while i understood what this meant in the theoretical sense, it didn't hit me that i would have to pay off $28,000 of my personal student loans six months after i left. and indeed, that time has now come.

if i wasn't living back at home, i wouldn't be able to afford rent, food, etc and student loans. of course, being that i am white and grew up middle class, i would probably never give up the privelege as defining myself as middle class, but shit, i'm really not. in fact, with all the fucking debt school puts middle class students and their parents into, i'm surprised so many people still identify as middle class. my family certainly isn't saving any money, or any of that shit which is associated w/ being middle class except for the fact we own a home. we really do live from paycheck to paycheck. my mother has her masters, but works for a non-rofit and doesn't make enough money. how do people even deifne middle class anyway? isn't it if you're educated and own a home? what if you're a single mom, or what if you have a fuckload of debt?

this makes me wonder why i would still identify as middle class. i think it probably has to do with the racist notion that the only poor people in this country are people of color who leech off the government and have like 12 kids so they get more welfare (of course, this is a myth, but who cares in the day and age of everyone lying). as a white person who lives in colorado springs, i can't not be financially well off, even if i have no money to save or invest...hmmm...something to think about.

i'm really good at neglecting class shit because i don't have to think about it. boo to me.

2006-01-17T07:21:00.000-08:00

season two of the west wing better get here soon, or i will cry from lack of intelligent politics.

by the way, i think al gore is right...hehe!

mad!!!!!

2006-01-14T01:57:00.000-08:00

My rant on Arlen "ballsack" specter and abortion rights and whatever else

Disclaimer: That shit is angry and it's not for those who are gonna argue with me or call me a crazy bitch cunt whore whatever. SO, that's your warning.

If I had money...

2006-01-13T23:50:00.000-08:00

I'd buy way too much Harry Potter merchandise and live in my own little wizarding world (well, that's not entirely true, but you get it)

I'd pay off all my friends student loans and/or pay for their college.

I'd pay someone to convince the president to appoint a bleeding-heart liberal to the supreme court.

I'd hire someone to clean my house (but pay them a living wage or more and make them dinner occasionally)

I'd buy every season of the west wing (just finished season 1!!! season 2 is on the way).

Yeah, whatever.

another harry potter and US politics coincidence?

2006-01-09T05:00:00.000-08:00

It seems Dick Cheney has found one of the remaining horcruxes.

(for explanation of Harry Potter theme, see previous post)

Dude, someone needs to stop this...really.

coincidence?

2006-01-09T01:46:00.000-08:00

so, i am going to stay up all night, and I don't want to...Fuck that!

But, besides that, I'd like to point out a very nerdy Harry Potter revelation (which will include the spoiler of who dies, and who kills them, in book 6).

So, today, the 9th of January, 2006, the confirmation hearings of Mr. Samuel L. Alito begins in the Senate.

On the 9th of January, 1959 or 1960, one Severus Snape, until recently a professor of Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry was born.

The reason I feel these dates are not coincidental is because of this:

Albus Dumbledore, who was recently killed, was considered by Voldemort (the Dark Lord) as "that champion of commoners, of Mudbloods and Muggles," meaning that Dumbledore beleived in rights for all people, not just purebloods.

The man who killed Dumbledore, is Severus Snape, who was birthed on January 9th.

And, in fact, today may be the death of rights for all people, not just rich, white, straight, able-bodied, biological men.

So, please go on with your non-nerd endeavours.

2006-01-07T03:00:00.000-08:00

i'm to drunk to type. fuck that.

kevin mcmillon is the shiat

your mom
balH!
DJlkhsdlf

ah, yes!

2006-01-04T17:56:00.000-08:00

now, there is a new years resolution generator, so here's mine.

woot!

In the year 2006 I resolve to:

Getting myself admitted to a mental institution.

Get your resolution here

posting

2006-01-01T19:13:00.000-08:00

i'll post more later...there is a lot of stupid random shit to post, but for now, i need to do some work and play some video games, damnit.

Can I have a title without the F word in it?

2005-12-28T20:14:00.000-08:00

Indeed, I can.

Um, I don't have shit to say, but felt the need to update for my adoring public.

JK Rowling has confirmed that the Sorting Hat is not a Horcrux (which is good because I thought that would be stupid), Aunt Petunia will not develop magical powers (which, and that Lupin will not die by way of Peter Pettigrew's hand (ala the notion that a werewolf can only be killed by a silver bullet.

So, you big fucking nerds can either rejoice or be disappointed, or whatever.

Uh, I like video games...that is. all. and i got mean girls for christmas! woo! and money and things~

no, really, this shit is ridiculous

2005-12-20T17:31:00.000-08:00

ah ha ha ha ha. i can't even be angry at how ridiculous all bush's bullshit is (please, tap my phone line, mr. bush, but you prolly already have).

so, as we all know, bush used the NSA to spy on americans because he thinks he's above the law and thinks he can jusify anything because of the threat of terrorism. he's a fucking asshole and should be removed with all his stupid cronies.

but, now, we see that the pentagon is not just classifying people who happen to be american and muslim as terroists (which is fucked up on so many levels), but college students who hold kiss-ins to protest the "Don't ask, don't tell" policy and military recruitment on their campus. oh do, click here to read the whole thing and get irate.

what the fuck? this fucking administration is crazy! crazy!!!!! in fact, i bet that means my friends at UC-santa cruz (one of the supposed terrorist campuses). they'd be just the type to go be in a kiss-in, mainly to make out with people, though...hehe.

on a serious note, though, this is ridiculous. Just because one doesn't agree with the policies of the government or pentagon does not mean they are a terrorist or in a terrorist organization. in fact, i feel like the government has more tabs on non-terrorists than real terrorist orgs in this country like the white-supremacist movement and others. fucking goddamnit. (start sarcasm)omfg! i'm gonna kiss another girl in a large public space to protest fucked up policies...i'm a fucking threat to the security of everyone in the US!!(end sarcasm)

eat a bag of dicks, mr. president (but don't do it in public, you might be classified as a terrorist)

god fucking damnit

2005-12-19T22:47:00.000-08:00

so, my mac won't turn on. last night, i turned it on, went upstairs (because it's old and taeks a while) and it was off when i came back down. now it won't fucking turn on.

i'm pissed and sad. and i don't think it's the internal battery running out ('cause it's been sitting on my desk).

so, if anyone wants to tell me how to fix it, or wants to help me figure it out, or wants to fix it for free :-) then let me know.

fucking bastard. i guess i could always take it into this place that does really good mac work down the street. hrmm.

day off, sister shopping, crocheting, happy, denver, et. al.

2005-12-16T01:02:00.000-08:00

So, I said I was gonna respond to Geoffrey's post, but it's holiday time and I am happy and can't quite channel the rage I need to repsond adequately.

Onto other things...Tomorrow I don't have to go into work because I worked a lot this week. That makes me happy because my sister is home as of tonight, my brother has a half-day, and we can go shop for mom's christmas presents. I also got paid today, which means I'll probably buy myself some christmas presents (bad idea). Yay for the fothy vava being home!

I like crocheting and am getting better at it. woot.

Last night I had to go up to Denver to accept a grant for work. I was all nervous because I wasn't gonna know anyone, but then I saw Dara from CU, who i love and miss, so everything was good and we met up with Carolyn G at Paris on the PLatte and had some delicious things. Dara departed and Carolyn and I went and had really delicious grilled cheese sandwiches and many drinks at this bar by Paris. Carolyn is cool and I miss people at CU a lot. Dara is working at 9 to 5 in Denver, Jeannette is working as an organizer for SEIU, I'm working at a queer youth org, Jessie is working for a queer Latino org. Think of the fun coaltions we could build around the FUCKED UP ballot initiatives coming in November. Or maybe, we could just fuck shit up generally. However, going back up to an organizing space in Denver made me miss it so much. I don't miss the work so much as I miss the people and relationships and fun times. I never realized that before, but now it makes more sense.

I'm in a good mood and going to croceht some more and then I have to find some palce to sleep because my bed is full of stuff from when I moved down from Boudler and all our couches have laundry and christmas stuff on them. boo! :-(

omg, i want the dude wearing these

2005-12-13T01:29:00.000-08:00

dayam, ima buy someone some ipod underwear now...hehehe. clicky

so, i just got really, really pissed reading geoffrey's latest blog post. i'm not going to link it right now because i'm going to write a scathing (i think it will be) response. his link is on the right, though, if you want to check it out.

like i've said before, white men in my life are so in denial about their privelege, it's ridiculous. you know, scratch that, it seems to be white gay men, but that's a whole other 39-page book in itself. DGS and I were discussing this tonight. booo!

Wooty woo!q

2005-12-12T23:41:00.000-08:00

uh, DGS liked Goblet of Fire, too. So, now I'm not alone in being a Harry Potter nerd who liked it. In fact, I know many other people who liked it, but whatever. I'm not alone!

San Andreas

2005-12-11T00:34:00.000-08:00

so, some of you may know I have GTA: San Andreas. A few months ago, though, I stopped playing because i couldn't get through this one goddamn mission, which was the mission to get your pilots license (you have to fly). I couldn't make the plane circle and land it, so I just quit. Well, today, I finally did it, but now I'm stuck on this fucking helicopter mission where i have to blow up three stationary trucks and two moving cars. this shit is pissing me off. obviously, i suck at flying, but i have to be able to do it in order to continue. fuck that.

Dogs are the greatest

2005-12-06T22:36:00.000-08:00

So, lately, I've been feeling immense love for dogs. I dunno if it's just because mine are so cute, or what.

Anyway, Max and Zero are my dogs and they love each other and cuddle each other and play games with each other. It's so cute.

Schulzki is back teaching at Palmer, but he's no longer the head of the Social Studies department. Talking points and mass letter to come soon (when I'm not tired).

Also, if you're in Colorado Springs, Westborough Baptist Church is coming to picket Palmer AGAIN this Friday. If you're not familiar with Fred Phelps or his church, feel free to check out godhatesfags.com or godhatesamerica.com.

I am gonna be out there with a clever sign.

Some ideas are:
Queers blew up the shuttle (a classic and personal favorite)
A variation of that would be "Queers are killing our soldiers"
You're a fucking idiot, go home
and
I witnessed Fred Phelps enojying Tom Kelly's small cock up his tight, puckered, asshole.

nothing

2005-12-05T01:43:00.000-08:00

yeah, i have nothing to post about really.

i've taught myself to crochet a bit better. i think i might take a class.

tomorrow, we should know more about the palmer/GSA/Schulzki situation, so I'll keep ya updated.

Godspeed (I always wanted to say that)!

a mostly re-post

2005-12-02T01:41:00.000-08:00

so, here's some of the small things that have come together lately.

this is a bulletin i just sent to people.

feel free to read and pass on (it's a repeat). feel free to email me your email if you want to do some letter/email writing and be updated.

word

go read this article: http://www.csindy.com/csindy/current/publiceye.html

and then let me know if you would be willing to add your name to a unified letter of alumni. Jared Seehafer, myself, and a few others are going to draft it and send it to the papers and the school board, superintendent and principal. We're gonna let you see it once it's written, in case you decide you don't want your name on it...but it should be pretty well-reasoned.

Also, if you have the time to send some letters or emails (i'm going to be writring up talking points so it'll be easy to compose and send off), let me know your email addy.

You probably have access to folks I don't who would want to participate as well, so feel free to inform them and have them contact me, or whatever.

I'm kinda trying to coordinate some sort of unified effort so that folks aren't having to put in a ton of effort to duplicate stuff folks are already doing, which is why I tell people to just contact me. But, if you want to keep people updated, that's fine by me. But, if people want to put their name on the massive letter, then i or jared would need to know.

Best,
Laura
AIM: pearly8067
email:reinsch at gmail dot com

Fuck The Establishment

2005-12-01T17:29:00.000-08:00

So, I was only gonna have my one post today, but now I'm fucking pissed.

This article appeared today in the Colorado Springs Independent and talks about how District 11 finally settled the lawsuit against them by the Palmer High School students who weren't allowed to form a Gay-Straight Alliance. Part of the settlement was that the District would allow non-academic clubs to once against exist (things like the GSA and also Mountain Biking club and whatever). So, yes, this is good, but if you thought it was the end of shadiness by Palmer's administration, you would be oh so wrong.

Yesterday, I heard that two teachers were mysteriously suspended with pay. These two teachers at my alma mater happen to be the two teachers that sponsored the now officially sanctioned GSA. So, yesterday, I was ready to cut someone.

But, if you read the last two paragraphs of that article up there, you'll notice that one of the teachers suspended is Mr. Anton Schulski, our wonderful history teacher, who is the head of the department. I'm ready to set some shit on fire now. That's fucking bullshit. I hope the teacher's union rips Palmer a new one.

Anyway, I'm going to be posting form letters up here if you want to write the superintendent or the principal. Also, if you read the article, you'll notice how the administration has been bullying the kids because they chalked on the sidewalk. That's some fucking bullshit!

Word.

Blog Against Racism Day

2005-12-01T00:29:00.000-08:00

So, as today is the first day of December, it just so happens to be World AIDS Day and Blog Against Racism day. Since I should be more informed about the state of AIDS worldwide, I will not be posting about the new addition to the US's global gag rule on family planning education, which now includes HIV prevention (as in, no one funded by the US government may offer HIV prevention services to people wanting information on family planning, birth control, sex, etc). I would also like point out how I keep finding instances of the US government trying to kill as many brown people as possible, and really, it's depressing me.

Originally, I was gonna write about how many white men i encounter are hella invested in their privelege, but seeing as people are crazy and will go batshit crazy in my comments, and seeing as how i am not of the mind to deal with it right now, i'm going to talk about my big pop culture pet peeve.

That way, we're focusing on other people and not people in my life who are busted. Additionally, people can remain content in their whiteness. Sorry if I sound bitter, but I've had really just awful conversations with 3 white men about being racist in the past day and they're dicks about it. SO, yes, I'm copping out for now, which in and of itself is a sign of allowing my white privelege to keep me from addressing racism where it should be addressed.

On to blogging against racism!

As I've mentioned before, I have an issue with Gwen Stefani's use of four Asian womyn as her backdrop. Of course, none of these womyn is allowed to speak, or get in front of her on stage, but they do seem to be there to accentuate Stefani's fashion choices and to make her whiteness look so much more the ideal by comparison. The first time I saw Stefani's Harajuku Girls, it was a performance at the MTV Europe movie awards and they were on the stage dancing as her Whiteness was lowered, like some sort of white savior, down to the stage. I almost threw up right there.

So, in essence, Gwen has this posse of Asian womyn who she pays to represent Asian Harajuku culture in her videos and whatever. But, instead of merely profitting off of this huge exploitation, she also started a website called Harajuku Lovers, which from my browsing of it, has the sole purpose of selling teeage white girls Harajuku culture through a white lens and then letting Gwen have the profits. It's true that there are "profiles" of the four womyn on the site, but all they have are some pictures and the English name that Gwen decided to bestow on them. Also, all the little Flash animations of the women have a white blonde girl front and center, with the four "Harajuku Girls" behind and halfway hidden. So, she's really turned Asian womyn into a consumer product to be purchased, as white people have been doing in different forms for thousands of years to womyn of color.

Notice that her posse are the Harajuku "girls" and not "womyn". The reason for this, of course, is the stereotype of Asian womyn as docile, fragile little girls who are often exotified by straight white men as the perfect woman "QUIET and EXOTIC and PRETTY!" Of course, these 4 womyn are quiet, exotic and pretty to Ms. Stefani too, but just not in a hypersexualized way. They're also "cute" everywhere you see descriptions of them as to not threaten the American ideal feminine beauty standard of tall, skinny, white and blonde. Also, the fact the womyn are silent and behind Gwen is another ridiculous stereotype of Asian women brought to the American mainstream through a supposedly innocent publicity stunt.

So really, I don't think Gwen is being any different than many of the male pop bands and artists who lace their videos with women as an accessory to themselves. I suppose it's just the same cycle being done over and over again by different people who have the privelege of buying others. But Gwen thinks it's not racist because she truly likes Harajuku fashion (so why doesn't she just use her loads of money and wear it?) and because she wrote a really shitty song about Harajuku girls on her shitty album. And, I think she might mention them in every single song on the album. She's merely using these womyn of color to profit on carcicatured versions of womyn of color, and the side effect is that white girls everywhere now think it's cool to essentialize and appropriate Japanese culture, as long as it's gwen stefani's version of it.

Really, it's just a larger trend of tokenization by people who are considered oppressed classes, or consider themselves oppressed. I mean, here you have a white woman using womyn of color to sell her product. Additionally, if you look at the way gay advertisers sell things to white gay men, you'll often see your exotified queer man of color used to sell whatever it is one might want to buy. Each person of color is valuable only to the extent that they can sell something, made by white people, to other white people. And yet, people still don't understand how people aren't thrilled that Asian womyn are being represented in pop culture, or that fact the gay community actually sometimes acknowledges that queer people can be people of color too.

I just get frustrated so much by racism within gay and lesbian spaces and also feminist spaces. As my friend Daniel says, liberals always say "well, we're all human, so race shouldn't matter" and as a result constantly erase the work of people of color within movements.

So, not only are my white male friends not willing to see their privelege in the way they talk about race (as if they are the only people who are able to define what race is and what racism is, when in fact, they would be least likely to understand it), but people who are supposedly progressive constantly discount race because they're too afraid to deal with the fact that they may be racist on an every day basis and they're afraid to give up the power that comes with being one of those good white liberals who knows exactly what to say to people of color when they actually encounter them (rarely, of course), and easily classify race as trivial, so that they don't have to step back, so similarly to what conservatives do.

Blah. On another random note, Angie Paccione is running against Musgrave. I'm excited because she is a badass. Someone I know once said Rep. Paccione reminded him of me...I think I'll contribute some money to her campaign because Bush was in Denver yesterday to fundraise for Musgrave because they're scared as hell she might not win.

the white house is fucking delusional

2005-11-27T22:15:00.000-08:00

when joe biden isn't using his liberal anti-american psychic powers to perform magical abortions on minors, he's using them to see through the walls of the white house!!!

for proof, click here

i'm not thankful for patriarchy

2005-11-26T15:17:00.000-08:00

so, i'm honestly not a big fan of turkey at thanksgiving, but the turkey sandwiches the next day are totally my favorite. i also love me some stuffing and mashed potatoes and rolls...mmm. thanksgiving was good, but nothing too notable to tell any of you about.

In my last comments, Kevin posted this article, which is about this report that was issued by Amnesty International about people's opinions of who is to blame for rape in the UK. I don't know how the percentages translate in terms of the US, but I'll assume they're at least the same (and would place a bet that they're actually much higher here).

For those of you who don't want to click through, a study was published by Amnesty that reported 1/3 (34%) of people in the UK think that women who flirt are partially responsible for their own rape. They also studied opinions about being drunk, if she said the word "no", if she was wearing "revealing" clothing, etc.

Not only do the results show a huge problem with the "blame culture" that exists surrounding rape, but I believe it proves a huge discrepancy between what rape really is and what it is perceived to be, as well as showing how The Patriarchy has caused people to devalue women's bodies, rob women of agency over their bodies, etc.

Firstly, I will link here. This is a page from the National Center of Victims of Crimes, which uses US justice department statistics to show the "true face" of rape. This page reminds us that 77% of REPORTED rapes are committed by non-strangers, or aqaintances, meaning that the person being raped, 3 times out of 4, knows the person who is assaulting them. It is important to note that these are statistics only from reported sexual assaults and that many women are raped constantly by their husbands/boyfriends and too afraid to report it due to threat of violence/death. As such, this % of aquaintence rape may actually be higher. I do not mean to make this only about women as abuse occurs within queer relationships and to men. However, since the study focused on attitudes towards women and rape, it makes sense to speak about it in that context.

So, if we accept the Amnesty statistics as true, and the US Department of Justice stats as true, we can already see the huge disconnect between what sexual assault really is, and what people percieve it to be. Apparently, rapists jump out of bushes next to bars if you are a woman wearing a low cut shirt. And while this sort "jumping out of the bushes" rape does occur, it probably more has to do with someone being in the wrong place at the wrong time rather than what they were wearing or if they were drunk. You see, if a rapist is waiting in the shadows, they would likely not have time to evaluate your drunkeness our your outfit.

However, it's more than likely that a male who sexually assaults a woman will have a relationship of some sort with her. So, when people blame women for their rapes because of actions leading up to the assualt, people are really blaming them for not being guarded with their sexuality AT EVERY MOMENT, for not wearing a turtleneck and long pants ALL THE TIME, and for choosing to be social, for being flirty, for trying to date, trying to make friends, and daring to drink alcohol unsupervised every once in a while.

It seems that the victim blaming effort is really an effort to shame women into giving up agency over themselves absent of a man, much like victorian days when you were property of your father and then your husband once you got married (of course, the fact fathers and husbands commit sexual assault would have no bearing on this in order for us to create the perfect "olden days" strawman).

People claim all the time that women have acheived equal rights (which is such a second wave white feminist argument), but really, women do not have the same agency as men in society (even if they did get treated the same and get equal pay, which doesn't happen either), which means that women inherently have second class status. I mean, the fact many female-identified people fear walking to their cars when its dark is a simple example of the limits on agency. This argument can also apply in different ways to other groups of people, but I won't get into that right now because this post would be even longer.

The article Kevin links to talks about what is socially acceptable, and what isn't, in society as it visualizes rape. The article uses the analogy of someone who has been robbed to show how values in society differ based on the crime. I think this is a mostly appropriate analogy because, if one is pro-choice, they likely hold the tenant that women's bodies are the property of the woman who has the body (and, dare i say, the belief that all people have a right to their own bodies, but i digress). Even as I write that, I am shocked that there are still people who would deny that a person has control over their body, especially the jerk who has been nominated to the supreme court, but whatever.

If you blame a vicitm of sexual assault, you are essentially claiming that because of some action, a woman has given up a right to her body. The example used in the article is that because a person gave money to a charity, they were asking for someone to take their money on the street (not acknowledging that it would be more likely someone close to them steal their money). The actions for which a woman can be blamed for her sexual assault vary, but essentially, they are actions in which a woman has chosen to act as her own person and not as someone who must constantly submit to modesty and submission to societies view of the "virginal" woman. In other words, many consider rape a punishment for uppity women who didn't know their place in society, and you can trace that all the way back to Eve in the garden of Eden, and now you know why crazy fundamentalists blame victims of rape. The fundies are not arguing that the consentual terms of sexual intimacy between two people were blurred, but that women need to be punished for being out of place.

I know that was a far jump in reasoning, but really, if rape generally occurs between two people who know each other, then there must be some other underlying societal reason that it is acceptable for men to forcibly take women's bodies or "property". The uppity woman blaming also plays so nicely into anti-feminist rhetoric about "traditional roles" of women. Obviously, if busted white racist feminists hadn't asked for equal pay in professions that they had access to because of their wealth, then rape wouldn't occur. The fact women dare to have some agency in our society is going to be its downfall, damnit.

As a side note, I would like to state that the survey by Amnesty was often ambiguous. What does "many sexual partners" mean? What does "intoxicated" mean? What does "flirting" mean? What is "revealing clothing"? None of these are absolutes where there is a line one can cross. IN fact, some would consider a woman having sex with someone out of marriage as being a reason she opened herself for rape (even if it was only one person), etc., etc.

Also, these sorts of things inherently take the blame off of the person doing the raping. Even my arguments against blaming the victim play into some larger structure of patriarchy that gives men the idea it's OK to rape women. However, if men stopped sexually assaulting others (whether that be other men, women or children) then occurences of sexual assault would be dramatically reduced. So, men not accepting the idea of sexual assault as OK for themselves, as well as men they are close to is a hella easy way to stop rape.

So, I'm just gonna say "fuck you" to that shit, and tell male-identified people to check rape culture within male circles (and also lots of other behaviors that impact other communities).

An idea

2005-11-23T22:12:00.000-08:00

Instead of flying a huge banner of an aborted fetus over beaches in hawaii, i've decided to take a bucket of aborted fetuses and throw them at people on the beaches of hawaii. hopefully, if i aim well enough, they'll land in their mouths so that they have some time to "chew" on my message. haha. fuck you, crazies.

A small rant

2005-11-22T18:55:00.000-08:00

I'm really not in the mood to update this blog too often right now. A small bout of minor depression has caused me laziness and also caused me to want to sleep at every moment possible. So, be gentle with me.

With that said, I have experienced so many conflicting emotions in the past few days, it's no wonder my body wants to sleep and process them all. These include love, betrayal, anger, happiness, competitiveness, sympathy, sadness, loss, and disbelief. While most people experience said things all the time, I had to deal with all of them in their strongest forms in a little less than one day. Blah. Some of them are still lingering on.

Maybe you'll get more later. Also, VETO ALITO!

Harajuku Girls

2005-11-16T23:57:00.000-08:00

I was on the phone with a friend of mine and we had a brief "discussion" about the Harajuku girls that Gwen Stefani uses as her "entourage".

Anyway, I'm gonna link to this post by margaret cho, where she discusses how this compares to other racist things in pop culture and the dilemma of no representation vs. stereotypical representation of people of color.

I'll post more later, but for now, i <3 margaret cho.

holy shit

2005-11-15T22:37:00.000-08:00

so, i never actually looked at facebook shit, but they have photo albums now, and you can post every fucking picture in the world and then label people in it.

that's amazing. i'm gonna upload ever picture from the start of college, and embarass everyone one i know *esp those who post bad pictures of me (richard) or who i know longer like (everyone!)*. if i did anything at boulder, it was take a lot of fucking pictures.

also, for some people, a friend from baker my sophomore year posted a camping photo that was taken 5 years ago, now? holy shit. ima post it here and then give a brief summary. actually fuck that, here it is, with no summary. can you guess which one is me? hahaha. i miss my hair!

and then, i'm gonna post some really good pictures i just found of richard...hahaha. i'm gonna get you back, damnit!!!!

but, first, i bought a pack of ciagarettes yesterday for the first time in three months because of what happened. i don't even like smoking anymore unless i'm drunk, which is good. but, because of stress, i have a feeling i'm gonna smoke all these. i promise i won't do it again though!!!

and, i've given up on my novel. i think it helped a little bit in my life, though.

holy shit, i just got stupid mad.

December 1st is Blog Against Racism Day

2005-11-14T21:31:00.000-08:00

December 1st is "Blog Against Racism"". I hopefully will be participating in the blogging against the racism. I think the post by Chris Clarke explaining why it's important for people to address all aspects of racism (not just the idea that racism exists only within the Neo-Nazis and KKK), is really on point, and I think that I shall put together something smart to post on that day. I also added a link to the post on my sidebar (in place of the referenda C and D stuff, in case you want to participate.

Also, my friend is now out of critical care and is apparently conscious but incoherent. I'm relieved, but also 2,000 miles away, so I can't go see him.

numb

2005-11-14T19:20:00.000-08:00

one of my greatest friends attempted suicide this afternoon at 2 colorado time.

the last 6 and a half hours have been a blur of numbness that i can't even describe.

i bought a pack of ciagrettes for the first time since august because it just seems like that might take things back to normal.

i can't believe how stupid, irrelevant and petty so many things seem to me right now, it's weird. i take so much shit for granted. fuck.

nothing important

2005-11-11T23:21:00.000-08:00

haha...i hate how the world sends little signs to you when it's trying to tell you to do something. it's actually rather bizzare.

In other not-so-exciting news, I can't believe my Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire countdown is already 5 days, 23 hours, minutes, seconds...And, add a minute for the fact I'm seeing the movie at 12:01, and you've got the extent of my nerdiness.

Because of said nerdiness, I've been downloading all the interviews with Daniel Radcliffe that have been happening all over TV. He was on TRL today, apparently, and the host was totally hitting on him, which is weird, because she's probably my age or older. He's 16! 16! ewww.

I changed my terror alert level icon to Aqua Teen Hunger Force. It's not because it looks any better than the older one, but because of my love for ATHF.

Speaking of the terror (whether it be from He-who-must-not-be-named or the united states government), this shit hole amendment to not apply habeus corpus to prisoners is goddamn fucking ridiculous. so, here i will state something i hold to be true. government bureaucracy can always have people abusing it (in rare cases), but it is necessary in order to maintain the rights of those we apply our law to. as such, not allowing people in gitmo to appeal their cases, is fucking crazy. while i don't have all the things i've read over the past few years on hand, i think it's not out of hand to say that many of the people we're keeping in gitmo were never threats to the people of the US (something about two afghani satirists who did political cartoons before we bombed the fuck out of their country and then arrested them), and some of those people have died because of the torture we employ there...oh wait, i meant "interrogation tactics" not "torture". also, the recent finding about white phosphorus that our troops use, which burns the skin off of people...whatever. in other words, the fact i just wrote this post could make me an "enemy combatant", and if the fucking amendment passes, anyone who is considered an "enemy combatant" will be put in gitmo and have no right to appeal the reasons why they were put there.

Oh, i remember in high school learning about gulags and all that shit. but, that was evil communism, it would never happen here in the fully democratic U, S of A. Oh, the lies we'll feed ourselves. :-(

Ima riot!!!

2005-11-08T19:20:00.000-08:00

If prop 73 wins in california, defining abortion as the "death of an unborn child" (uh, charge all women who have abortions with murder!), and enacting parental notification (which is a stupid, bad, and dangerous idea), i promised daniel that i woudl go set some shit on fire in california. but i have faith that it will not pass because i don't got no money to get to california...hehe.

Boredom and math

2005-11-06T17:28:00.000-08:00

My brother and I went to Pizza Hut for lunch today, where we also did some math problems because he's struggling (with a B-) in math. I have realized he needs to proctice division. I don't know who didn't teach him correctly, but he can't remember how to do it, nor can he figure it out. So, I'm sure he'll be thrilled when I type him up some division proactice problems...muhahahaha.

I'm fucking bored. And I get to go to work and do monotonous, tedious things. Really, I don't mind it so much because it pays well, but I miss organizing and doing things. I always told myself and Jessie that I didn't like to be up-front doing things, which is true. I didn't like to be the spokeperson, or the person who had to always take all the credit, but I've realized I liked having a hand in the planning and organizing the shit and going out there. Now, all I do is file and enter things after they happen and clean up before and after. It's like this total disconnect from any positive change. I know it's necessary, but I don't think I want to do it. I just hope no one is smart enough to google my name and find my blog because Ima get myself fired.

Also, Thursday night, there was a focus group thing done by the CHinook Fund because they are a major funder of my workplace. They asked a lot of questions about involving people of color in the organization and specific focus on multiple identity work. I didn't speak up because 1) I've been there 2 weeks and 2) I don't think I have a real grasp of what goes on. I just think it's a rather white space even though many of the youth we serve are not white. But, it's not like they could have a QPOC space right now with a facilitator because all of their facilitators are white. I've also noticed most of the identify as women, which Daniel said was interesting for a good many reasons.

Anyway, Ima watch the Live West Wing debate because I'm excited!!! wooo!!!!

Paychecks are dope

2005-11-05T00:47:00.000-08:00

I got paid on Thursday and tonight went and bought my first thing in a long ass time.

I bought a Gryffindor shirt...hehe! and then I saw this really Pretty pink and black (sparkly) Corpse Bride shirt, so I bought it too. And, there were these ridiculous pink gun earrings (like the gun on the last Outkast album that Andre 3000 has), and i thought they were probably so stupid and tacky I had to have them.

And, as always, Samuel Alito sucks sucks sucks sucks.

He he he he

2005-11-04T00:00:00.000-08:00

More people in the US now believe that aliens have secretley contacted the US government than believe President Bush is doing a good job. I think that's saying something.

You'll also note, in that same poll, that Dick Cheney has an approval rating of 19%!!!! Personally, I wouldn't know how to rate Dick Cheney's job. Unless of course, people really know he's running the show and so Bush's rating is actually 19%, or people don't trust bald robots...I don't fucking know!!! But still, I feel like it's time to let Bushie go along with all his ridiculous cronies. Goodbye, fucker!

I know not one of you has joined Veto Alito. This makes me sad. Why? Because you shouldn't think that women are the property of men who get them pregnant. God, it makes me sick just thinking about it. Fuck you, Alito! So, join join join join join.

I'm writing a letter to Specter and others on the committee of the judiciary. It's gonna be handwritten because I actually care that much. Fuck.

get me a flamethrower and some love

2005-11-03T01:44:00.000-08:00

i hate music because sometimes the lyrics are very appropriate to my life.

I was gonna post something, but I will just say that C won and I am happy about that and Doug Bruce and go to hell and die.

Election Day and Alito!

2005-11-01T03:23:00.000-08:00

alright people. Today is election day in Colorado. Ima go vote after I drive my brother to school. I'm voting Yes on Referenda C and D. Also for Colorado Springs I'm voting yes on 3b for d-11 and for school board i'm voting for Mann, Hasling, and Gundvagen (because I think public education is a good thing and don't think we should be teaching kids that Adam and Eve rode dinosaurs to church).

So, get your asses out and vote.

Also, if you're on myspace, or want to be, you should join the group Veto Alito; Bush's Supreme Court nominee. I even made a buddy icon which is my first ever, since I just taught myself how to do it. This Alito idiot has some of the most ridiculous written opinions I have ever seen. For example, he claimed that a strip search of a 10-year-old girl was fine under a warrant on her father's house. In other words, if you happen to be in the wrong place at the wrong time, you hae no rights, damnit.

Also, the following is a form letter you can copy and paste and send to your senator. Of course, you can edit it at will. All of this info is in the myspace group, but it's now here too. To find your Senator's contact info click here

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Dear Senator _______,

I am writing to you to express my urgent concern regarding the nomination of Samuel Alito to the United States Supreme Court. Historically, the courts have served as a safeguard, protecting the American people and their rights regardless of which party is in power.

In addition to its role offsetting and checking the powers of the President and the Legislature, the Courts have been charged with ensuring equal access to the provisions and rights enumerated in the Constitution and Bill of Rights.

Samuel Alito's judicial history demonstrates a lack of Constitutional understanding and a disregard for accessibility and equal protection under the law. In a dissenting opinion he authored in Planned Parenthood v. Casey, Samuel Alito argued in favor of a provision requiring married women seeking abortion to inform their spouses despite threat of physical violence. He demonstrated a disregard for workers who are victims of sex discrimination in his dissenting opinion in Sheridan v. Dupont. His ruling in ACLU v. Shundler demonstrates a skewed view of separation of church and state. In Doe v. Groody, Alito agued that police officers had not violated constitutional rights when they strip-searched a mother and her ten-year-old daughter while carrying out a search warrant that authorized ONLY the search of a man and his home; implying that no one is immune from having their rights taken away if they are in the wrong place at the wrong time, or related to someone suspected of a crime.

At such a critical time when extreme ideologies need to be kept separate from American public policy and rights, one with Samuel Alito�s history does not belong on the bench. He is a threat to the continued affirmation of rights for all Americans.

As an American, and as a voter, I urge you to oppose Samuel Alito's nomination. The rights of all American's are clearly at stake under his narrow ideological interpretation of the law. Please use all of the power and tactics at your disposal to prevent his appointment. If Alito is passed through the Committee of the Judiciary, I am asking you to filibuster his nomination.

Concerned,
__________
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Later in the week, we'll be starting a letter writing campaign to members of the committee on the judiciary to stop the nomination before it gets to the floor.

Word Word

uh, someone shoot me

2005-10-30T17:45:00.000-08:00

Race-baiting pisses me off, but as I was listening to the Broncos game today, I heard a wonderful commercial put out by the Independence Institute (probably the only conservative "think-tank" in colorado that i know anything about). It was about how there are "illegal immigrants" in colorado using our schools, medical care and prisons (of course, this isn't mentioning the fact that most undocumented workers and immigrants don't actually use the health care and many do not put their children in school for fear of being found out...and the only way they're using our prisons is if we're arresting them and keeping them in prison, rather than deportation, but whatever). Apparently, because of this fact, the state can cut money to these things still. really, though, funding in CO is already low (except in prisons), so how is that helping anyone? i don't get it. but that is not the point of why i wrote this.

the woman on the commercial is like "i'm a single mother and victim of crime," which apparently is somehow related to undocumented immigrants. in other words, the implication of the commercial was that the brown people in colorado are the ones committing the crimes here. uh, if undocumented workers were all committing crimes against poor white women, then wouldn't they not be here because they would be in prison, or be deported? i don't get it. also, they claim the state should be spending money on protecting our border. for one, colorado doesn't border mexico or canada and two, that is a job for the federal government. this advertisment was the most muddled peice of shit i've ever heard and still can't believe the implied racism. screw that.

grrr....so, vote yes on c and d, damnit.

As Master P once said, "Uhhhh, nuh nuuh nuh nuuh"

2005-10-29T21:26:00.000-07:00

Oh, dearest of friends, I am now the proud owner of a ticket to Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire for 12:01am on November 17, 2005 at IMAX. IMAX, hell yes! I am so so so happy.

In other news, I have been really busy this past week with work and helping my mom host 37 Taiko Drummers from Colorado Springs' sister city, Fujioshida. I am hella tired from running around until all hours of the morning planning, executing, and then un-executing...heh.

I will post some pictures soon, hopefully! Yay for Harry Potter!

modesty for the sake of men

2005-10-27T00:14:00.000-07:00

oh dear, my friends, it seems focus on the family's young women's magazine is just full of advice to make sure no one knows you've developed breasts until your wedding night.

Please, do read it here. The article goes into how lifting up your arms in praise at church (or one of those rockin' christian rock shows!) can tempt the men around you to take their penis's attention off of jesus (sounds like a good porno to me!).

it then goes to talk about how having a tight shirt on in youth group might distract a boy from god and the bible for one whole night!!! more likely, it might cause him to pop an embarassing chubby in front of everyone while reading about soddom and gomorrah, and we all know that means he's really a flaming homo (well, except for the fact no one actually believes that those dudes who are so into jesus are actually straight). i mean, look at the Promise Keepers shit. Huge meetings of all men for whole weekends; the perfect reason to get out of the house and get some hot man-on-man action.

i was going to say more catty things, but i got tired...from laughing so hard at that stupid bullshit. Operation: Huge Gay Porn to commence soon.

Of course, the real issue here is that the Christian right likes to claim women have all the agency in world the tempt men into behaving badly, so that when they are raped/abused it's easy for the church/men/courts to participate in vicitm blaming on behalf of the abuser ("she was wearing a tight shirt in youth group! and i couldn't help myself!"). I hate shit like this. It's time for men to acknowledge that they are in control of their actions and it is not the responsibility for women to act as non-existant and modest as possible around you. Wearing baggy shirts a'int gonna stop rape, but men calling that shit out and being responsible human beings will. So fuck you focus on the family and your campaign to rob women of all autonomy over their bodies. grrr.

i'm still laughing...

2005-10-25T23:10:00.000-07:00

This one might be a good ironic one for Richard and Hillary's new blog Wall of Irony, which is a political blog with good commentary (and i'm not saying that just because they're my friends). Also, if they ever need a vacation from political blogging, they can always let me be a guest-blogger (*wink*)!!! I'll even bribe them by adding them to my links list :-D

Guess who this quote (via pandagon) by White House insiders is referring to:

a vile, detestable, moralistic person with no heart and no conscience who believes he's been tapped by God to do very important things

While it certainly sounds like Georgie, it is actually referring to Patrick Fitzgerald, the good man who is trying to prosecute those in the White House who revealed that Valerie Plame was an undercover CIA agent; most notably Karl Rove and Scooter Libby (you remember scooter from the muppets, anyone?). Of course, I don't think they were so happy when people said that about the infamous Kenneth Starr, but when have republicans actually stood by their convictions in times of political trouble?

update: dudes, these poor little twin girls have been taught since birth about their white pride and shit and are proud models of AryanWear. Please note the smileyface Hitler on their shirts...I feel like this should be some sort of sick joke. egh.

2005-10-24T02:05:00.000-07:00

does anyone know what this thing is next to dumbledore?. is it maybe the case for the goblet of fire? what the hell?

2005-10-22T01:42:00.000-07:00

i miss vodka

Thank the One and Only (Alpha AND Omega) GOD for Wayne Allard

2005-10-21T00:28:00.000-07:00

Wayne Allard has reintroduced the consitutional amendment to ban gay marriage

Thank god Wayne Allard isn't concerned with such petty issues as torture (he voted against McCain's amendment that passed 90-9), or the shit that went down in the Gulf Coast, or the fact that we're wasting billions of dollars in Iraq while neglecting domestic issues (well, except for this one).

Instead, he wants to stop teh ghey from getting married because it ruins traditional marriage. Of course, no one is mentioning that traditional marriage was created as a means for one man (father) to pass on his ownership of women (daughter) to another man (new husband). Personally, I will be introducing an amendment to make all women and people of color property of the white man so that we can really get back to traditional marriage in the country...hell yes!

I mean, I'm sure this wouldn't just be a political manuveur to try and appease the crazies who are mad with Bush's Supreme Court nominee and are starting to get a little pissed that, for all their crazy voter suppression efforts in 2004, they're not getting much from the republicans. Also, I'm sure it wouldn't be an attempt to take the focus off of Delay (who's quoted in the article), or Frist, or Rove or the other 21 people who could be facing endictments for being corrupt fuckheads.

Also, Barack Obama was talking a wee bit of shit about the Yankees on his podcast. He's so dreamy!

Additionally, fate is a motherfucker.

FUCK YOU ALLARD!

jobby mcjoberson

2005-10-20T07:11:00.000-07:00

i got the job i applied for and i get to work downtown, which is sweet because it's the only decent part of colorado springs...wooo!

Oh my god, You look like a frog! Umbridge, you're going down.

2005-10-17T23:48:00.000-07:00

lalala. i had my final interview today for that job i applied for. i find out if i got in on wednesday! woo!

also, you have to check out googlism.com. i know it's an oldie, but it's a goodie. this shit is hilarious. for example:

laura is hardly a sympathetic martyr
laura is a sadistic witch
laura is like playing with fire
laura is dangerous
laura is your god
laura is a braggart
laura is an acoustic craftsman
laura is such a bitch it is unnatural
laura is lusting for you
laura is a lesbian and fucks chickens

the great part is that it is all true, damnit.

And for Kevin:
To answer your question: Because of your mom...haha
1) My first strond memory of you is hanging out with you and drinking in John and Lucas' room and sitting on the futon thing.
2) Stupid White Men by Michael Moore (not because you are one, but because you were reading it at some point)
3) I think you remind me of an emu because that's a fucking random answer
4) Will you help me plan a Watertower: reincarnated party? haha.

Comment, bitches!

doggie!

2005-10-14T13:04:00.000-07:00

i took my doggie, max, back to the vet today and he is fine and shit...wooo!

also, i want a new ipod with video, but i suppose i'll have to wait until i get a job and save up a good $400. my guess is christmas will come sooner than that! woo!

SNOW

2005-10-10T11:17:00.000-07:00

mark is fucking rad and put this little question thing on his site, which is cool. so, i'm going to put here, which is not an effort to turn it into one of those goddamn annoying myspace posts i get 14 times a day. i just wanted to put it on my blog.

The following are 4 questions that, if you post a comment with your name, I will answer the question about you. If you also would like to answer the question about me, feel free to do that, but it is not required. Without further ado:

1) My first memory of you
2) The song/movie/book/website that reminds me of you
3) What animal/mineral/vegetable you remind me of
4) and a question I've always wanted to ask you

Just post a comment for me and I will answer these questions about you.

Mark had this to say about me:
Laura:
1) Some pink blur walking by my peripheral while moving into my new dorm room.
2) "Close to Me" - The Cure - cause you were the first one to figure out the song that I was looking for. The one that went "do do doot."
3) A peacock because of the large brilliant plumage, which reminds me of your large brilliant hair.
4) You had a crush on Kusinich, didn't you?

His answers were way better than mine to him. Now I feel like a pitiful dork.

there is a lot of snow on the ground and it's still snowing and that makes me happy.

michael espinoza is in town and we might hang out tonight. i haven't seen him for many a year.

i got a drunk dial at 445 this morning. i actually was asleep, but this wasn't your normal drunk dial, not at all. the person on the other end was crying hysterically and i wasn't awake enough to adequately deal with said situation. i told said person to drink a glass of water and calm down and go to sleep and things would be better in the morning. that said, i think i was right.

All right, your challenge has been presented to you. get to it, bitches!

Erica
Answer to question: I don't think we would be because you were an actress and I was a techie...but in college we might have been, if you had gotten involved in political shit.
1) seeing you at the hospital with ym popsicle
2) John Mayer because I made fun of you for liking him
3) An elephant (not because you look like one)
4) I'll ask you the same question you asked me

sad puppy

2005-10-08T11:36:00.000-07:00

this morning I came home from dropping my brother off and my doggy max had some sort of pus like stuff running out of his eye. it was somewhat brownish/bloody and i freaked out and called the vet and they let me bring him in. he's such a good doggie because he just sat there and let the vet do her thing, but he was shaking because he was scared. anyway, upon further inspection, he has a swollen nose on the same side as the eye leakage and a swollen lymphnode on that same side. so, i have to give him antibiotics and eye drops and wait for test results to come back on friday to make sure he dosen't have lymphoma or cancer or whatever. it's pretty unlikely because of how it seems like some sort of bacterial infection, but whatever. poor baby :-(

oh, the propoganda

2005-10-06T21:34:00.000-07:00

i have the hiccups, which i haven't had for a long time. i don't enjoy it.

so, i was watching friends tonight and saw the new commercial against colorado referenda C and D. Apparently, the "tax increase" is the same amount that this young white girls parents need to send her to a year of college. so, i pulled out my handy bluebook and took a look at how much it costs them to send their daughter to school for a year (assuming they are of average income). Apparently, she goes to a university that costs $71 a year. can someone sign me up to go there? because in these times i don't know any college that is that cheap. but hey, these people who won't divulge where they're getting their funding surely aren't misleading the people? never!

of course, the truth is, if you're a middle income family who plans to send your child to college in colorado, voting yes on c and d is actually a good idea and investment. over five years, you will not get back $491...however, it has been cited that if C and D don't pass, tuition at CU will go up 42 or 48 percent, which is WAAAAAAY more than $491. So really, if you wanted to better afford college tuition, you would vote yes.

Of course, I'm hoping that the pro C and D people attack this too. By the way, C and D is not a tax increase, in case you think it is.

OK...you've been informed for the day.

Public Service Announcement

2005-10-03T16:51:00.000-07:00

Since Randal has a public service announcement today, I will too. However, mine is really just a catty statement. Here goes:

I wish I still voted in Boulder so I could vote for anyone but Eugene Pearson for City Council.

Oh, and, why did I get a MySpace invitation to join a parenting group? wtf?

DU, DU HAST

2005-10-02T04:56:00.000-07:00

My mommy and bro and I went to see the corpse bride tonight. It was super good and super beautiful, even though a lot of the movie was only grays, whites and blacks, which made it even cooler.

My crocheted scarf is coming along, and it's going to be rather uneven and shit. Oh well, I'll still wear it, and since I've never crocheted anything in my life, it's not perfect. But, it really doesn't look that bad.

I need to get on a regular sleep schedule. I spent tonight, spiffifying up my myspace profile. it's pretty now.

ooh, i'm supposed to go see the aristocrats with randal sometime this week! i'm excited because i have someone other than my mom to see a movie with. also, randal can drink beer, my brother cannot.

haha! comment, bitches!

bertie bott's every flavored beans

2005-09-30T23:31:00.000-07:00

This post is generally about Harry Potter BS, so read on if you embrace my absolute nerdiness.

So, my brother went to Target to pick up the last roll of my Mexico pictures (which turned out really well!) and some hair spray for my mom and some other things. As we went to find the hairspray, we walked by the end of the candy aisle, and low-and-behold, it was Harry Potter candy. Of course, there were the Bertie Botts flavored beans, which have already been in existence, but also the new additions of Chocolate frogs (that come with collector cards) and Fizzing Whizbees (that don't come with any collector cards). While these were each very overpriced, we were excited (and had a $10 gift card to help justify spending over the limit). I used a lot of parenthetical phrases in this paragraph.

So, here is my review and rating of said candies:

1. Bertie Bott's Every Flavor Beans.
While these are really just Jelly Belly's, I've always thought they were cool because there are some nasty flavors included in the bags. However, it would be cooler if they didn't have the guides included, so that you didn't know what flavor youw ere getting, much like in the movie. Also, far from having every flavor, there are only twenty flavors, but I'll forgive for that because the world is not really magic. My brother and I sat here tonight and tried out many of the nasty beans.

The first one I was given was Soap. Now, soap is not the nastiest thing in the world, so I thought it would be OK. I was wrong. The Soap was like this overly sweet bean that had an awful aftertaste that didn't leave my mouth. I imagine that's what anti-freeze tastes like, but it probably is what soap tastes like, so it was accurate. The next delicious jelly bean was Bacon. It tasted like Bacon, but since it was in the form of a jelly bean, it made me want to throw up. This was probably the most disgusting of all because bacon candy is a nasty idea. Next, I tried Black Pepper, which was actually the best out of the three when I put it in my mouth. However, after I chewed it up and swallowed it, it burned my nostrils as if I had actually just eaten real pepper. It was ingenious if not disgusting. At this point, I instated the rules of having chaser jelly beans. After eating a nasty one, I got to eat a good one so that it would balance. After my tasty one, I decided to try Grass. It really tasted like grass and was somewhat sweet, like grass. However, it reminded me exactly of the perfume by the same title that the Gap used to sell, so it made me somewhat sick. At this point, my mouth was a mix of pepper, roasted marshmallow and grass, which did not bode well, so I decided a Booger jelly bean would even it out, which it did. Booger flavored beans really taste like snot, which I can deal with because I currently have a nasty cold. I decided to stop here because I figured tomorrow would be a lovely day for the taste of Dirt, Earthworm, Rotten Egg and Vomit. The Bertie Bott's Beans are still cool as hell, and I think there should be more odd (nasty and good) flavors.

2. Fizzing Whizbees
These are just overpriced PopRocks. While they were sweeter, there was nothing remarkable about them. They came in two packets of three flavors. I don't think I would get them again.

3. Chocolate Frogs
These are definitely overpriced because you only get two frogs in the package, but they look really cool and taste really good. Also, you get three collector Harry Potter cards. We got Dumbledore (woo!), Prof. Flitwick, and Gwenog Jones (of the Holyhead Harpies fame, which is an all-women Quidditch team, according to the card). I would definitely buy these again for the cards and because they don't taste like crap.

Alright, you've now gotten the low-down on all the Harry Potter candy. In conclusion, yay for every-flavor beans and chocolate frogs...boo for fizzing whizzbees.

Now, if only they could make real Drooble's Chewing Gum (the kind that leaves bubbles floating on the ceiling for a few days). Actually, i think you can get chocolate cockraoches (not real ones) in Britain, but we're not that lucky yet.

White man vote vs. white man vote

2005-09-29T21:26:00.000-07:00

ickle johnny roberts is now the chief justice of the united states of america. the vote was (drum roll) 78-22...now, i assume this is because one crazy motherfucker is replacing another crazy motherfucker, so really, the balance of the court remains intact. since senator salazar voted in favor of the crazy motherfucker, i've decided to send him a letter telling him how clever he is to vote for roberts so that he can challenge o'connor's replacement. because, if salazar ends up being a republican with a D next to his name, I will scream. right now i'm thanking god that o'connor agreed to stay on until her replacement was chosen. i hear that bush wants to put a "minority" on the court, because, you know, then he can call all the democrats racist for voting against them. of course, i will gladly recommend michelle malkin because she is in favor of internment of muslims. i think that would be the cherry on top of bushes quickly melting ice cream sunday.

more democrats voted against john bolton than john roberts.

GIS for john roberts:

see! the chief justice is actually a man in a beard and an apron! someone call up the new york times. today is a sad day for american :-(

Also, I recommend Senator Obama's (D-Ill.) podcast. He kinda has a sexy voice, even though I think he sits to close to the microphone because he's really loud. He was one of the 22 today, and for that, I love him.

TV is sucking my soul out

2005-09-28T16:44:00.000-07:00

so, i have been watching a lot of TV lately because i'm addicted to law and order:SVU and i watched the season premiere of desperate housewives which ended with the new family having someone locked in their basement. Also, the Scorcese documentary on Bob Dylan was on PBS and tonight they have a show on the Beatles and also protest music of the 1960s.

Also, I want to watch The Apprentice with Martha Stewart because I want to support Martha...hehe.

But, in lovely news, Tom Delay got indicted, which couldn't make me happier. He called his prosecutor a "partisan" which is funny because the last 11 of 15 politicians this guy has prosecuted have been democrats. So, Fuck you, Tom Delay! I hope you take the Grand Old Party down with you.

the tarot is creepy

2005-09-28T02:29:00.000-07:00

Ha ha. So, I sometimes like to take things on my mind to facade.com, which has all sorts of tarot reading shit and other divination things.

I'm thinking I should ask it about my suspicions about Snape...hehe. Of course, the great thing about Tarot is that you can generally take it to fit whatever situation you asked it about. but here's my reading, which is kinda creepy. It's the relationship one, which means it deals with you and the subject of your inquiry. The first two are probably the least accurate, but still somewhat true. The third and fourth are probably the most ridiculously accurate. The fifth and sixth talk about how the person sees me, so who knows if that is right. And the last one is also fucking ridiculously accurate, but only because those are all the things lacking. Weird how that shit works out.

how you see yourself (ruin): Crushing defeat brought about by idle intellectualism divorced from reality. Sadness and desolation in the aftermath of a catastrophic and total collapse. A decisive conclusion brought about through the swift and merciless application of overwhelming force.

how you see your partner(Futility): A desperate attempt to resolve a matter without conflict. The use of cleverness or outright deception to turn the tide.

how you feel about your partner(Power), when reversed: Using your power freely for your own enjoyment and the betterment of others. Coming to grips with progress and using your position to help it along. Finding security and identity someplace other than in the possession of material things. Letting go and encouraging others to find their own path. Being magnanimous and generous with your success.

what stands between you and your partner (Prudence), when reversed: Undue attention to small details at the expense of the big picture. Losing yourself in your work, to the detriment of your personal and spiritual life. Making the same mistake repeatedly. Refusing to learn new crafts or skills.

how your partner sees you: The seed of luxury, debauchery, and physical gratification. The seductions of the material world draw you away from an opportunity for stability and comfort. The need to focus on the practical and understand the dynamics of your environment. May represent a gift, document, inheritance, or physical event.

what your partner feels about you (Truce), when reversed: Restlessness and mental disharmony. Deserting a struggle in progress. A temporary retreat from stress that turns into a permanent rout. A lack of vigilance that could lead to disaster.

the present status or challenge of the relationship (Virtue): Personal fortitude and strength of character. Accumulated power set in motion towards a distant goal. The initiation of an enduring partnership based on absolute trust. Honor maintained in a time of desperate struggle. Taking full responsibility for a decision, and bearing the solitude of leadership.

Wooo!

2005-09-27T15:11:00.000-07:00

Wooo! I got a job interview. Yay!

random musings...lalala

2005-09-26T23:54:00.000-07:00

1. Happy Banned Books week. To celebrate, I've posted a banner on the left, and I'm posting this picture from http://the-leaky-cauldron.org because Harry Potter books are banned books (boooo :-( ).

2. The Bronco's game I went to tonight was really good. They played really well throughout the whole game and it made me happy. Also, we beat the Chiefs, which was a plus.

3. Ribbon car magnets are fucking stupid...Maybe you could have donated your three ribbon dollars to a veterans organization or something...geez.

4. Pottercast is way better than Mugglecast, I think. (yes, i am a nerd)

5. Max, my good doggie, is sitting here starting at me like he wants a treat.

Sorry this post was boring. I can't do much about that.

Bombing Against TABOR

2005-09-23T13:31:00.000-07:00

I got this idea from the Bombing for Choice thing on the right and am now adding a second one called Bombing Against TABOR. The reason for this is that I support Colorado referenda C and D on the November 2005 ballot and oppose Colorado's Taxpayer Bill of Rights for about 7 million reasons, but when I couldn't remember the website address, I went to google and the Vote Yes on C and D website wasn't even on the first page when I typed in "vote yes on c and d" or any other variation including "colorado". As such, I thought, why not try to get the page at the top of the google list so that people aren't bombarded with a bunch of organizations who support the measure, but will have all those to look at once they get to the main page in support. So, if you don't need any explanation on why to support C and D, then copy the following html on your website. You can put it in your post itself, or you can put it in your links list, or you can throw it in both! Also, once the bluebook for the election comes out, I will add that as a more "objective" link.

<p>I support Colorado Referenda C&D </p>
<ul>
<li><a href="http://www.voteyesonc-d.com" title="Vote Yes on Colorado Referenda C and D">Vote Yes on C & D </a></li>
</ul>
<p>You can too. Join me in <a href="http://pinklaura.blogspot.com/2005/09/bombing-against-tabor.html"> Bombing Against TABOR</a>.</p>

for just a post:

<a href="http://www.voteyesonc-d.com" title="Vote Yes on Colorado Referenda C and D">Vote Yes on C & D</a>

Also, if you would let me know you added it to your site by commenting and you can send a link back to my site if you don't want to explain the whole thing yourself. Although linking to http://pinklaura.blogspot.com/2005/09/bombing-against-tabor.html would probably be more effective.

Then, if it's not already, Add your site to google

Alright, if you don't know what C and D are, or aren't sure how you feel about them, this is where I'll offer a little explanation to go with supporting said referenda.

Referenda C and D are temporary fixes to the huge cuts that the state of Colorado had to enact because of the ratchet effect of the Taxpayer Bill of Rights due to economic recession that began the end of 2001. As such, billions of dollars was cut from the Colorado budget in all non-mandatory areas (except for corrections, which is a whole other issue in itself). Hence, road maintenance and construction, public safety like police and fire departments, public building construction, state health care, and state higher education were the largest sections of the budget that were hit by the combination of TABOR, a budget recession, and voters having incompatible values. My personal focus is on higher education because I know most about it, but if you have questions about the other places where colorado institutions were fucked, I can find out for you.

So, with the budget recession and TABOR, funding for higher education was cut dramatically. The short story is, this means higher tuition and within 5 more years, there will be zero state funding for higher ed. As such, the burden of tuition will be on students, and in-state education at premiere institutions (like CU) will be as much as private education. This, combined with the bad idea of the College Opportunity Fund, means that low-income students and students of color are being tracked into community and technical colleges and not given euqal access to education. This is having the same polarizing effect that segregation and class status once had for underrepresented students trying to pursue higher education.

Of course, my using higher education as an example won't convince many people who will say "well, why should i have to pay for anything?" While this question could get me into a larger argument on taxes and whatnot, I'll just say that the better educated your population is, the better economic opportunity your state is able to have. Additionally, for every 1 dollar put into the CU system (as of 2004), CU put almost $15 back into the economy (from a study done by the Bell Center on Public Policy). Not only does this prove that higher education in Colorado is actually a very very smart investment, it goes against the idea that we're wasting money on higher education. Without our state colleges and universities, the economy would be in even worse shape than it is now, which actually is saying something.

I'll post more later, since I have to take my brother to sell boyscout popcorn. If any of you want popcorn, let me know!

it's fucking cold

2005-09-22T16:26:00.000-07:00

so, i like the cold weather, but i don't have any clean socks, so i'm wearing flip flops, which means i'm cold.

i have to go pick my brother up now. this post has been worthless.

WHAT THE FUCK?

2005-09-21T14:49:00.000-07:00

clicky

please note that the FBI is now sending police to "collect evidence" against porn stores that might offend the "community sensibility". I fully understand that child porn and the like are prosecutable by federal law and support measures to prosecute and get rid of kiddie porn because that shit is fucked up. However, your run of the mill porn shop isn't selling any kiddie porn. Of course, porn shops also sell many other products like contraceptives, sex-toys, etc., which i am grateful for.

However, I think it's fucking ridiculous that sex portrayed and bought by consenting adults is now being "investigated" by the federal government. of course, far right groups are fucking thrilled.

and what's the attorney general's excuse? that porn damages children and families. of course, i doubt he's coming from the feminist perspective that the portrayal of women in most straight and lesbian porn is degrading and therefore causes straight men to devalue sex and women and sex with women, which is a valid point, but no feminist organization has asked the FBI to start getting rid of adult pornography. In fact, many have focused their sites on trying to reform the porn industry (which they have every right to do) and creating sex and womyn positive porn (which they also have every right to do). Of course, I personally find the fake nature of intimacy, orgasms, and the like portrayed in porn as libido-killing and don't much care for it, so I am grateful for such feminist influence in pornography and the sex industry as a whole. However, if an adult wants to go buy some porn, then I recall the first amendment.

Let me have my fucking porn, goddamnit!

weddings

2005-09-18T22:10:00.000-07:00

My grandparents on my mom's side had their 50th wedding anniversary yesterday, so the weekend was spent in Estes Park at the Stanley Hotel (featured in The Shining) with my family. It was really amazing, and there was a slide show that had amazing pictures from the past 50 years and all that shit. Apparently, last night at 3am, a bunch of people on the floor I was staying in were woken up by loud shrieking (including my mom and sister). I was out, but there's all these stories about how haunted the hotel is and all that, so it was kinda cool to stay there.

Other than that, I don't have much to say. I'm very tired and a little sad and bored, so I think I'll go to sleep.

nerd alert!

2005-09-15T14:52:00.000-07:00

ah! the Goblet of Fire preview came out today....it's so so so so good. it looks so good! wooo! dudes, you can download said preview here and watch it and start counting down the minutes with me! wooo! i'm too excited. alright, back to laundry and cleaning (bleh)

hahaha...

2005-09-13T11:04:00.000-07:00

check out this link (note the part after the slash) http://www.cnn.com/#hellfrezesover...so true!

my side hurts

2005-09-12T15:56:00.000-07:00

i took to the task of cleaning up the house today. of course, since i am back at home, it means i end up picking up pieces of things the dogs have chewed up, dirty clothes, and more pieces of things the dogs have chewed up since the things i just picked up. i also decided to do dishes and clean the kitchen/clean out the fridge. i found ice cream in the freezer that i got for my 17th birthday from my friend michael. no, really, i'm not exaggerating. that ice cream has been in there for 6+ years. so, if that gives you any indication of the other wonderful things i found in the fridge, then i think you know that i almost threw up in the refridgerator. plus, as i was throwing all the old, nasty, moldy food into trash bags, my dogs were trying to eat it.

i'm applying for a job here in colorado springs that is part-time and i have no idea how much it pays and it's being an administrative assistant. i'll leave it at that for now (because, you know employers type your name into google and check you out before they interview you). the only thing i have no experience in is quickbooks, or whatever, but i can pick shit like that up easily. so, we'll see. plus, i'm super cool.

did i mention i didn't get the jobs i applied for in wisconsin? yeah, that sucks, eh? but i can always try again once the people burn out (as seems to happen more often than not).

in other news, my friend has floor tickets to see the rolling stones in november in san diego. he wants me to go out there and go with him (and, of course, hang out with him). i think i'll do it because i miss him and i really would love to see the rolling stones for free (and my mom will probably support this trip because she would kill to see them...maybe i should send my mom instead). however, the concert might be on election day (or around then) and since i hate flying, i would want to drive, but really, i should just fly. whatever.

that's all for now.

the supreme court

2005-09-12T11:14:00.000-07:00

I hate John Roberts. I also think it's bullshit that there is only one woman on the judiciary committee, and no people of color.

Fuck you, senate.

Parry Otter!

2005-09-10T00:57:00.000-07:00

Why does Harry Potter look like a semi-airbrushed dyke with a mullet in these posters?

No really, he looks creepy. And Hermione looks a little weird too. They look better in the teaser trailers, though, so I'll be forgiving.

The full Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire trailer is coming out with the Corpse Bride, so now I'll have to go because I'm a double nerd (maybe like Snape could be a double agent, or a double-double agent).

Also, I sat at the DMV for 3 and a half hours today! Why, you ask? Well, the long version is that because of TABOR the budget for Motor Vehicle Departments (and other necessary bureaucracies) in the state has been drastically cut. This means that they've had to close down DMVs and cut the amount of staff working throughout the state; including Colorado Springs. The short version is that my sister got her wallet stolen, so I had to pay for her to get a replacement mailed to her and there was a 3 and a half hour wait at the DMV. I find this huge lack of adequate locations and staff to be another good reason to vote for referenda C and D this November, darnit!

That's right, I just made the personal political!

2005-09-06T23:31:00.000-07:00

I'm going to read now. send me kisses (of death).

I PBS

2005-09-06T03:02:00.000-07:00

Being usually bored with myself, I settled down for some television tonight. My family does not have cable, so I can choose between 5 english-language stations and two spanish-language stations. However, nothing decent seemed to be on, and then I decided to check out PBS. and OMFG!!!

So, I watched this show called History Detectives where they take artifacts people have and go research them to see if they have the historical significance that the people who bought or acquired the items were told they have. It's actually a really cool glimpse into the different ways you can approach a history of something, as well as the fact you learn a lot of shit only PBS can provide about different, random eras of history.

Then, after this, there was The Life and Times of Frida Kahlo, which the announcer dude pronounced "Kay-loh", but then when the actual documentary came on, people weren't pronouncing shit incorrectly. It was really really really good and it made me happy. They also had an advertisment for the Scorcese-dorected documentary on Bob Dylan, which should be sweet and it out on the 26th or something.

I've decided PBS is the shit...If you're a nerd like me.

2005-09-05T01:45:00.000-07:00

Zero (seen above) has been acting like this whenever I try to move him from the places he is not allowed to be; like downstairs. He growls like a lawnmower and then, if I pick him up, he tries to bite me. He tried to make a break from the house tonight because he thought my mom was in the van that I drove and he jumped in the van. Now, he's in the van on the passenger side, by himself. I don't think it's nice to leave him in there, but when I try to move him, he does the lawn mower growl and he will bite my fucking hand off. So, hopefully, he'll get over it soon. WHat the fuck? Stupid fucking dog. Maybe he's mistaken me for my sister. Stupid asshole. It's like he's holding a grudge or is possessed by George. W. Bush.

On another note, I went to King Soopers to pick up some cheap food, but ended up spending more because I picked up Chamber of Secrets and Prizoner of Azkaban. I think they would have been cheaper at Target, but oh well. I think I'll pull another all-nighter and read them. That way, I might be able to get Zero out of the car at 7am.

2005-09-03T21:28:00.000-07:00

Rehnquist is dead...oh dear.

i just made a snowball, and i'm in hell

2005-09-02T23:38:00.000-07:00

so, you know that something's wrong when Fox News reporters are talking about the lack of government aid in New Orleans and getting pissed about it. For a classy little video clip, go here and download. I love it, one fuckhead is like "let's put this into perpective" and Skip or whatever his name is is like "This is perspective" and Geraldo cusses a few times and cries. whoa.

Also, Kanye West was on the hurricane relief thing and called out what was going on. That link is there too, if you care.

Oh, the faggotry!

2005-08-31T19:03:00.000-07:00

Hurricane Katrina is fucking gay!

So, as usual, the homos are to blame for the hurricane! I mean, I know we blew up the shuttle, and caused 9/11 and also have the power to summon tornadoes with our vaginas, but now we have the power to control the hurricanes too! Apparently, Southern Decadence, which is New Orlean's pridefest type thing, was supposed to take place this weekend, and these crazy ass motherfuckers think God intervened to stop it from happening. Of course, it's only been happening for 30 years, but it takes God a long time to be updated on the festivites. I would just like to say that "Southern Decadence" is a fabulous name. Props to whoever thought of it.

If blaming the hurricane on the gays doesn't float your boat (no pun intended), then there's always the crazies who say the STORM LOOKS LIKE A FETUS!!!OMG!11!!1!! and is therefore god's punishment for abortion clinics. That picture could pretty much resemble anything, however, and it's my personal opinion that the hurricane was a punishment from God for jellyfish (maybe octopus??) and their culture of faggotry.

Of course, those of us in the know know that the hurricane was really a punishment for all of that delicious shrimp gumbo (Leviticus 11:10) that New Orleans is known for. For more info on the faggotry of shrimp, please visit Godhatesshrimp.com.

Also, in non-relation to the hurricane, but on the grand theme of faggotry, some stupid ass man (who is speaking for the group Concerned Women for America) is mad that the Girl Scouts are all lesbians who run around cutting off penises. How dare they take material out of their books that talks about becoming homemakers. Now young women will never learn how to make pies properly for their asshole husbands! Also, Girl Scouts are sinners because in the Girl Scout promise you can choose to substitute the word "God" with a word that pertains to your spiritual beliefs. How dare such an organization promote freedom of religion...HOW ANTI-AMERICAN. It's a travesty!

And, lastly, I'd just like to say that if dinosaurs existed (which is highly unilikely since the world is only 6,000 years old and it's been proven that the brontosaurus is not real) that the reason they were all killed was because they were gay abortion providers; really big, gay, abortion providers.

the tangled intraweb we weave

2005-08-29T03:19:00.000-07:00

dudes! so, i was looking through a HUGE stack of old pictures i had in a box and came across a bunch. however, i came across one of myself and my friend drew from freshman year of college. as such, i was curious as to what he has been up to because the last time i saw him, he played me a song from the group him and our friend randy had created, and then went clubbing (actually, there were a few other things we did, but they're too ridiculous to post). so, i looked him up on the intraweb and found the website for him and randy and adria's music group called the "Animated Coochie Wonders." First, the site is pink, which means I love it. Secondly, there are some ridiculous pictures of them and it made me happy. But I suggest you all go take a look because their "mascot" is a roughly-drawn vagina with eyes. It's amazing. Oh, and the music is full of sexual innuendo.

So, I emailed Drew and hopefully he will come party with me this week. He lived across the hall from Mike and Randal in their dorm, which now seems so long ago, but my relationship with him was ridiculous and fun and we were a bit crazy. It's OK, though.

Apparently, New Orleans is going to turn into a large bowl of imminent death. That sucks.

OK, I need to sleep since I have a lot of things to do tomorrow.

puppies!!!

2005-08-28T01:14:00.000-07:00

Stupid Zero sat there and looked up at me for an hour, so I took a picture. too bad he's so so so so cute. dogs, geez.

uh, i don't have much else to say, so ima go to bed.

Nerd update: I just watched the international teaser trailer for Goblet of Fire and I must say that it looks really good and I like the music. Also, the Death Eaters look like the KKK and in an interview with Rowling she mentioned that Dumbledore's defeat of the wizard in 1945 is notable because of it's association with Nazi, Germany.

I was also thinking about how she addresses subtle "racism" in the book in terms of the way Slughorn talks about non-pureblood wizards and how it's amazing that they're not pureblood if they have good skills in magic. That was random, but yeah. Too bad she uses "black" as a descriptor for the non-white students even though she doesn't do it for the white students at Hogwarts.

oh, the ridiculousness

2005-08-24T22:05:00.000-07:00

I'm afraid you all may be looking at the beginning of a very long post again :-)

Things to be angry over:
This article (via Pandagon) is by a lovely man by the name of Mike Adams who purportedly, to use a word from Supreme Court nominee John Robert's views of gender inequality (hehe), goes to a school in North Carolina. He is outraged by the showing of "Trans Generation," sponsored by the women's resource center, office of diversity, and office of the dean on his campus. You see, this "porn" documentary chronicles the lives of four transgender college students who are in the process of transitioning. One of the students is from CU, which has nothing to do with the article, but which made me want to find Mr. Adams and tell him what I think of him. He offers 10 questions he plans to ask at the showing of the movie (which I don't think he's seen, although, he does make a lot of value judgements about it). But before he gets to his absurd questions (all of which degenerate the issue of transistioning into wanting to have or not have a "hoo-hoo dilly") he says he confused about whether he should wear a dress or a suit, which now makes me want to send him an email, which i will. Also, he resorts to tokenization in his questions and also reverts to the time-worn conservative argument that his "taxes" (student fees) shouldn't be going to pay for "porn" (documentary). Of course, this is when campuses fund events from all sides of the spectrum, etc...blah blah. So, check it out, and get mad...bleh.

This article talks about how a new study has come out about when fetuses experience pain, and that it isn't until 7 months of gestation. However, I don't really care to argue that. I would like to point out the better parts of this article where I've been enlightened to the fact that Senator Brownback from Kansas has proposed a bill requiring that

"doctors provide fetal pain information to women seeking abortions when fetuses are at least 20 weeks old, and to offer women fetal anesthesia at that stage of the pregnancy"

The article then goes on to say that anesthesia increases the rick of a mother bleeding to death from her uterus as well as increasing the risk for breathing problems.

I think I've figured out the motivation behind this one. If the government doesn't fear-monger women into not having abortions, at least they can make them pay the extra hundreds of dollars for anesthesia (which has the added bonus of stopping low-income women from having abortions). But that's not enough! It's perfect to punish the heathen sluts by increasing their risk of bleeding to death from unneeded anesthesia. wow, what a perfect way to get rid of all those who aren't TrueBelievers.

Harry Potter spoilers ahead (including who dies):

So, I just re-read Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone and needed to mention that a dream Harry has where Draco is laughing and then he turns into Snape laughing and then there's the "inexplicable" flash of green light. So, really, that's a ridiculous foreshadowing to the death of Dumbledore (except, of course, Draco isn't laughing as he stands there, but yeah).

Also, Jessie and Richard (or whoever else), I want to know what you think of the scene in Half-Blood Prince where Harry learns about the argument between Snape and Dumbledore where Snape is talking about how he doesn't want to "do something" Dumbledore has asked him...Flash to the last scene where Snape looks at Dumbledore with "revulsion and hatred" and then kills him. I really want to believe that Snape had previously agreed to kill Dumbledore to prove to Voldemort that he was a loyal servant and it makes sense that Dumbledore would sacrifice himself for the Order and Harry, especially since throughout all the books he talks about death as if it is not a big deal.

It seems wierd that Jo would have thrown that conversation in there because if Snape is really on Voldemort's side then he would have no problem pretending to keep a closer eye on Draco, and would have no need to argue with Dumbledore, and therefore wouldn't have done so. I guess we'll see.

That was my nerd self, sorry.

Uh, that's all, I will post some pictures from Nebraksa at some point, prolly. Kisses.

the gay messiah came to denver on tuesday night

2005-08-18T02:29:00.000-07:00

so much to say for this post...woo!

On Tuesday night, my sister and I attended the Odd Men Out Tour with co-headliners Rufus Wainwright and Ben Folds (we purposely missed the opener, Ben Lee, because I listened to one of his songs and I thought it sucked). When we got there, I saw Scott, Lucas, Tirzah and Carrie and we chilled with them the whole time and had many an overpriced drink (the first bought by Lucas, so I must give a shoutout). Apparently, Mark was there and said hi to me, but I looked right past him, which sucks because I haven't seen him for a couple-few years. Not cool thing about the show: It was ALL white people. We could have had a goddamn KKK convention. And, since it was overrun with white gay men, it might have been possible to actually have the KKK convention after the show.

My sister, who digs both Rufus and Ben, but not as extensively as I, seemed to have a good time and she was all excited that Rufus made a reference to a musical. He said he was "Johnny Long Note," in reference to the altitude, which is a reference to the song "Johnny One Note ( Lyrics by Lorenz Hart, music by Richard Rodgers)," from the musical Babes in Arms. The fact I actually Googled that makes me a bigger dork than my sister, but now she can be satisfied since she couldn't think of what musical the song was from. At the concert,I made some comment about her not being 21 and then realized she was, so that was to make up for my mistake.

Back to the concert: First to go on was Rufus. He was wearing cute jeans, a scarf as a belt, a ivory blouse-type shirt and a fabulous diamond brooch. His set was amazing and he made some catty comments. Apparently, he's been really into writing country music lately because he said it was his mission to "save country from country," which was cute. He played two "country" songs. He also said the altitude was going to make him pass out at which point we could all take advantage of him on-by-one. And, he talked about how "Gay Messiah" was his protest song and people should stand in solidarity with their gay brothers and sisters, especially under the Bush administration. And before he sang "Poses" he said that he had written it about someone else, but realized it was about him. I love me some Rufus. Although, I think his Colorado Springs show was better (maybe due to lack of some stupid ass Ben Folds fans?). Also, I got a hot pink shirt that on the front says "You Better Pray for your Sins" and on the back "Cause the Gay Messiah is coming." (link) I was tempted to buy two because i know a certain boy who would probably dig that, but then realized that would be stupid.

Rufus's set list was something like this:
Maker Makes
Art Teacher
Rebel Prince
The One You Love
Vibrate
Katonah
Poses
Between My Legs (a new favorite!)
Memphis Skyline
Hallelujah
Beautiful Child
Gay Messiah
Foolish Love (encore)

Then Mr. Ben Folds came on and rocked the hell out of the Fillmore. He didn't really talk as much as I would have hoped, but I suppose that meshes with his new album too. Maybe he's just not as catty anymore? It made me happy to have to pay for one ticket and get two of my favorite artists at the same time. Also, I love the audience participation Ben incorporates into his shows because it's cool.

Ben's set list was:
Bastard
Gone
Zak & Sara
Jesusland
All You Can Eat
Still Fighting It
You to Thank
Careless Whisper (w/ Rufus)
Landed
Bitches A'int Shit (a Dr. Dre cover, in case you're wondering)
Brick
Evaporated
Army
Philosophy
Rockin the Suburbs
Gracie
Late
Not the same
One Angry Dwarf (encore)
Thank you Denver (encore)

Best part of the concert? Ben and Rufus doing a duet of "Careless Whisper" by George Michael. If none of you know the song, that's OK, you would know it if you heard it. Here's some context in the form of lyrics:

Should've known better than to cheat a friend
and waste this chance that I've been given
so I'm never gonna dance again
the way I danced with you

Never without your love

Tonight the music seems so loud
I wish that we could lose this crowd
Maybe it's better this way
We'd hurt each other with the things we'd want to say

My brother starts school tomorrow and he's going into the SAIL program, which I was in, which is for those damn smarty-pants kids. He had to make a "dream board", which is a thing he puts his goals for the future on. In grassroots organizing style, he did short, intermediate, and long term goals. It's a little ridiculous. Of course, he waited until the last minute to do it because that's what we do in my family, damnit. So, I'm had to sit here and put finishing touches on it and cover it in that clear shit you put on counters. I think he's scared to go. Erica and I made him put a photoshopped Kerry-Edwards 2008 sign on there. He didn't want to because, in his 4th grade class, only him and his friend Clive voted for Kerry. After Bush "won" the election, Clive sold my brother out and told everyone that he voted for Bush so that he would be cool. The moral of the story? Peer pressure is bullshit. My brother held his own however...woo.

I leave for Nebraska tomorrow afternoon for a cousin's wedding on my dad's side. My mother was invited, and she's going. However, this will be the first time many of my dad's side of the family has seen my mom since they got divorced. I just hope no one gets drunk enough to go crazy. Although, that is my goal since my family is a bunch of drunks (now you know where I get it from).

I went with my mom to Wal*Mart tonight to get stuff for the trip, etc. and I bought two t-shirts, one is a pink Pink Floyd shirt with the Dark Side of the Moon logo, but it's cool because it's emboridered. I also got a Kelly green shirt that, in 70's-ish lettering, says "Flippin' Sweet" ala Napoleon Dynamite (which is a little played out, but oh well).

Actually, looking at my recent aquisition of t-shirts (Pink Floyd, Rufus, and the color green), I think I'm channelling some sort of freakishly tall, green-eyed energies. Whatev.

This post has been long, but it will make up for not being here and being in Nebraska. I made sure I'm brining my newly acquired Wisconsin sweatpants, since my family is all Huskers fans.

2005-08-16T01:11:00.000-07:00

this is a clever little piece about patriotism.

i get to go see ben folds and rufus wainwright tomorrow. it's like an orgasm waiting to happen. i'm super excited.

apparently the theatrical trailer for Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire is going to be out soon. I'm super nerd-excited about this. I am listening to the mugglecast podcast. and these dudes are a bunch of dorks. and they're all mad about the movies not being true to the books and it's wonderful and now they're debating what rating the movie should have....hahahaha.

ok, i'm out.

2005-08-14T23:45:00.000-07:00

via Pandagon

a church in/around houston...

"Life is the Longest Death in California"

2005-08-13T00:57:00.000-07:00

I miss Daniel a lot lot. It's hard for me to have had such a wonderful time at Congress without him. But, I know it would have been 400 times better if he was there, so I don't feel too bad as long as I tell him that...hehe. No one will ever replace the canary, no matter how hard they attempt to (yeah, you *know* who you are). I want to go visit San Diego, but I'm poor and my SUV would probably flip over on the way. Also, I need new music because some of my shit is played out and I don't know if I could handle my collection for more than 10 hours. I do really want to go sit on the cliffs of La Jolla and watch the sunset while pondering how many more years until an earthquake causes the beach to plummet into the ocean, or a great wave caused by global warming covers the great state of California. I finally looked up Rufus' lyrics to his song "California" and decided he wrote it when he was on meth and that he's much more pop culture saavy than I am, or all his name references were a result of meht use and don't mean anything. All I know is he's singin' about Bea Arthur, which is enough to put you at the top of my favorite artists list, damnit.

I really like that "These Words" song. It's cute and catchy. Also, for some reason, I like that Mariah Carey song, which makes me want to puke on myself for a number of reasons:

The movie "Glitter"
That person who really loved Mariah and sucks (but, they could never sing like her anyway)
Mariah's "MTV Cribs" episode
Mariah's rainbow half-shirt she wore in one of her videos

My doggie, Zero (the little black one), likes to lay in the bathtub and growl at my sister. He's wierd, but it's OK, because he's cute. My brother taught both of them to sit, which they have never done before. It's fabulous.

I went to Elitch's today and it was fun, especially wondering how the hell people dress themselves like they do in the morning and walk out of the house. This one woman was in this tight leather dress that was maroon, at least 7-INCH! black vinyl knee-high boots, and it prolly took her 4 hours to do her makeup. I mean, I know roller coasters are fun and all, but did you really need to bust out the vinyl boots? The Half-pipe ride is the shit and we got to ride it twice because of a technical difficulty. My brother won me a Grover doll, which is cute! I miss Denver (but I'll be there with Rufus and Ben Folds on Tuesday!).

I have gotten no sleep, so Ima go to bed now. I would comment extensively on politics right now, but it makes my head hurt since it's 2:24am. So, maybe look forward to an uber political post in the coming days??? I'll be taking suggestions for topics of discussion in the comments. We could have the first ever pinklaura political forum :-)

kisses *

2005-08-10T01:10:00.000-07:00

I'm gonna go see Ben Folds and Rufus Wainwright on Tuesday!!!! wooo!!! I think my favorite artists should tour together more often. It's like getting two concerts for the price of one. Although, I've noticed that ticketmaster service fees have gone up ridiculously. i hate ticketmaster.

Apparently, I have to drive to the mountains at 6:45 in the morning to go visit my mother. I need to shower and look cute since she will be showing my siblings and i off for her new co-workers, but most of my clothes are still dirty from my trip to wisconsin and it's 1am now...this sucks. i posted some new pics on my flickr account if anyone cares...there's a pretty little thing on the sidebar.

jocelyn told me that gwen stefani was part asian, but cedric and i looked it up and she's not. she's scotttish, english and italian. i still am adamently opposed to her use of asian women as accessories. her and i are not "cool" as she so sweetly sings to me in her newest single, which is why i downloaded it illegally, so i wouldn't be contributing to her cultural appropriation.

My sister turned 21 yesterday. we went out in colorado springs. many shots were bought for her. we talked to people, most of whom were liberal (i'm always shocked). i ran into jeff foster. he looks older, but still skinny. i drunk dialed almost everyone i know. i had a rough night.

I wish I could just make you turn around
turn around and see me cry
there's so much I need to say to you
so many reasons why
you're the only one
who really knew me at all

Update: Why the hell are Podcasts the coolest things to ever be on this planet. I'm going to become and information freak...there is even one about Harry Potter. Dayam. I love apple :-*

2005-08-08T16:04:00.000-07:00

so, i have deleted this blog to start it anew...

here's to things ending and new beginnings.